Tuesday, May 30, 2017

So, the International Career Starter

Well, after a very long wait for a solid job, managed to be a part of the renowned and one and only The Plaza Hotel
I am working at The Plaza, yall!








This is the restaurant that I am working at
The Palm Court

This iconic hotel, tbh IDK what that was which made I doubted myself about what I learnt at hotel school. In my defense, it might be because I was so focused on scoring my papers instead of really feeling it and taking the lessons in, considering the fact that I knew no one cares of what I learnt from the school as long as I have the right attitude. In my defense, it is also correct to have the right attitude. However, it hurts my pride of studying about hotel management for almost 9 years now but not knowing about this iconic hotel, which is now I am a part of. Still in my defense, I am not much of a learner. I am a doer. My center of interest is all about being consistent in a smaller system. I am so bad at multitasking and so bad at so many things, which some people think that I was good at. I kinda know of what my capabilities are. However, I would want to keep my options open to many opportunities ahead. I do not want to miss out any. Chin up!

Now, let's get to what I want to say because I might be losing the shit right now since it is almost ending, the suhoor time for today. It is my fourth day fasting during the Holy month. In about 15 minutes to its end.

After having to shift the gear back to study mode for my master's, it is hard for me to start over with the working gear. It is so hard, especially it is involved in shifts. Shift working time at a hotel is just cray cray! Hotels open 24/7, just like the hospitals. Hence, workers have to be there to operate the hotel. Simple as it is being said, however, the execution is just crazy. That is just the beginning of my frustration.

Then, the workload itself. I am the first male host at the restaurant. On the other hand, that is my first job at a food and beverage department. Legit one, unlike the internships that I had to do to get my diplomas. Therefore, it is another struggle, especially here in the States. There are plentiful of kind of food, even the options are limited at the restaurant, however, I find it difficult to catch up because I am not exposed to the food scene, thanks to my less fortunate family. Unlike some people are privileged to enjoy all the luxury of traveling, enjoying food and whatnot. I have not even finished the cuisine in my country but now I have to up my game at international level. That is freaking tough! I even had no idea about the simplest item in the food menu. It is just embarrasing!
My work is easy, to coordinate the guests to the seating. As much as easy as it might sound, it gets tricky when it gets sooooooo busy! Before my days off, I had to stay back to help out since the most senior employee ended her shift. So, I had the chance to have a taste at handling the busy period: The Afternoon Tea at The Plaza. As famous as it is, it was hard to juggle. I find it hard to balance out the number of covers for every servers. I still haven't been able to understand how each of the person's personalities, because that is how I think I could handle them.

Besides the workload, it is the immediate managers that I feel like they are not helping. I know the job is easy but the connecting with the servers and busboys makes the easy job hard. Like hard, hard. I find myself constantly building the sense of dislike at this job. Every day is a struggle to get out of the bed, to get to work. It is a lovely hotel, however, my managers fail to inspire me to continue on working, except for a couple of them. Everyone seems to be less motivated. That is the job of a manager, to keep the fire going, not just making sure the work is done. Essentially, that is it but that does not make a manager a good one.

The colleagues. Everyone is fairly new. The oldest colleague at the podium works for 2 years and half. However, there's some issues going on. Blergh. Come on people! I am just starting and all the juicy all goody bad rumor is on fire. Goodness! So, I didn't get to learn from them and we are constantly outta man to man up at the hostess stand. O Lord, help me understand! Even tho I am working with girls, they are just simply messy. I cannot imagine how messy they could get if they are at their house. I do not think I could live with any of them. I cleaned the podium so that it is better in terms of organization. At least we know what is in there, e.g. forms and all other important things. I am glad I tidied up the podium. Next up, the coat room! I hope I could muster all the courage to do that. That is more ambitious that the final research project that my team and I completed during the program at NYU. Some servers and busboys are so hard headed and feeling entitled to just boss me around. I have to up my game with these people so that I could be ahead of them and able to control them, at least work-related. The thing is, I am lacking the motivation to up my playing field.

When there are factors giving me frustrations at work, I am experiencing internal conflicts. It makes me question on my capabilities and my abilities. The easy tasks turn hard when it gets busy are very frustrating. The intense busy period is not being helped by having good leadership makes it harder than I could've imagine. The differences in beliefs and preferences makes it hard to make the connections with the fellow employees. The connections are imperative in making things easier as there would be less drama, less tangling up simple issues arising during the operations. As hypothetical as it might sound, however, it can be realized by having THE connection. However, idk how to create the bond, as I haven't been able to find the common grounds.
I find myself discouraged. I might put the expectation to high. I expect people around me to be very nice and uplifting. The thing is, it is just in my ideal world. Nobody's perfect, thus, I can't expect a perfect world around me. Someone been telling me over and over again that I am a perfectionist. I am still digesting to that idea. I want to be a perfectionist but not a very nitpicking one. As long as the system works, I am fine with that.
The internal conflicts, ideally, easier to tackle, however, in my opinion, if the causing sources that create such conflicts are always there, whether I like it or not, it is going to be there as long as it is. So what can I do to make it better?

One of the takeaways that worth being reminded is that every day is a new day. How this might work? Remember the lessons of yesterday, however, just throw the rest of the useless details into the trash can, then, start afresh. Every day. It might sound hard to do, nonetheless, it worth the shot. Why? Because you are broke mama! U better work for the money! Ka-ching!
Other than that, instead of lamenting on the bad things that happened yesterday, cherish on the good things happened yesterday. It might boost your motivation and give you the reason to smile. Smile is good for health and just focus on the good vibration. It will be good.
Now I am praying hard that I could remember this two things:
1) EVERY DAY IS A NEW DAY
2) FOCUS ON THE GOOD THINGS
3) GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER GIRL BECAUSE SHIT CAN'T PAY YOUR BILL




La di da!
X



p/s: I think I will start to care less on being repetitive about self reminders because I think repetition will help the thoughts to become effortless practice in real life, as the saying goes: practice makes perfect.