Wednesday, October 22, 2014

So, Holiday


What do you guys think when people said about holiday?
Should it be luxurious?
Should it be cheap?
Should it be relaxing?
Should it be hectic?
OR
Should it be all of the above?

I wonder, what makes people think of going to places
Some may want to get to have a look around on how people lead their lives from different part of the world
Some may want to diffuse together with culture
Some may want to just travel outta peer pressure
This is my sheer two cents
DON'T get offended
LOL

If you'd asked me, I'd love to be in the nature
The sound of insects, not the animal apparently (I'll run like there's no tomorrow)
The sound of the sea breeze
So peaceful

This is how I like it

I just wish I can just stay there, out of connection
Just me alone
Filling myself in with loads of good vibes, fresh air

I just have this feeling
The getaway feeling
But when???








XOXO





Monday, September 1, 2014

So, It's Been A While...


Homai goodness!!!
So many spider web!!!

I wish I can apologize, however, I don't think I do have a very consistent reader since I had no urgent request for a new post
HAHAHA

Still, I feel bad that I didn't write for almost 3 months now!
Gosh, it's so fast!!!
I feel like it was yesterday I posted the most recent one

I wanna post today because I wanna share the feeling
The feeling when you had something big, but it was almost a year ago, now only people realize it
I was like, how am I going to react to that

Last year, November, I was awarded as the recipient of Royal Education Award with Medal of Excellence
It was a HUGE award!!!
But only a handful of people know that and it was only a plain congratulations wishes
I know I sounded so ungrateful
On my defense, it was HUGE!!!
My name is in the list of the recipient in the Pemegang Mohor Diraja's Official Website
I have no idea how to describe the feeling
However, the feeling was more intense last year!!!
Presently, I feel OK about it
And boom!
It's back

People started to congrats me again and I have no idea how to react to that
Just that if you do have any suggestion how to react to something you cannot think of how to react, kindly share ;)







XOXO

So, She Has a Baby


I forgot to congratulate my idol, Kelly Clarkson - like publicly - for her newborn
My apology Kakak!!!
I was so happy for your
She's now almost 3 months' old!!!
River Rose Blackstock, please be a good girl
Please be as nice as your mother, as gorgeous as your father

Oh!!!
How cute she is!!!
Somehow, she's like the boss now :)

So happy for my Idol
But pretty please make new album or single
It's been a while now :)

Friday, May 2, 2014

So, It's May 2014

Time flew so fast
4 months went so quick
Happy Labour Day!!!
Went to work yesterday, came back late, and was pissed off
It was not a good day

I haven't get the chance to get sth out of me
What I'm saying, what is the achievement for the past 4 months?
I'd dare to say, I'm achieving nothing
Last year, I didn't achieve much
The convocation, the award were something unexpected
I didn't feel I achieved sth
Idk why
U may feel that I'm being ungrateful
What I can say is that, I'm just telling u what I feel

Almost half of the year
Nevermind
Maybe I need to plan
A time where I can reflect
Reflect of what I've done
What happened
Maybe this can help me to open up my eyes
To a greater height
For any possibilities

It's been a while I didn't write
I'll write more later




XOXO





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Saturday, January 25, 2014

So, Karok Time!



Saw this while scrolling down the timeline on Facebook
I can't remember when was this
Lol
Enjoy!!!


video

Am I that good?
Or bad?
Hahaha
I'll take whatever you say :)



XO





Friday, January 24, 2014

So, Feeling Friday



Just a thought
How am I gonna be good enough?
Even for myself?


Good Enough by Little Mix

I am the diamond you left in the dust
I am the future you lost in the past
Seems like I never compared
Wouldn't notice if I disappeared

You stole the love that I saved for myself
And I watched you give it to somebody else
But these scars no longer I hide
I found the light you shut inside
Couldn't love me if you tried

Am I still not good enough?
Am I still not worth that much?
I'm sorry for the way my life turned out
Sorry for the smile I'm wearing now
Guess I'm still not good enough

Does it burn
Knowing I used all the pain?
Does it hurt
Knowing you're fuel to my flame?
Don't look back
Don't need your regrets
Thank God you left my love behind
Couldn't change me if you tried

Am I still not good enough?
Am I still not worth that much?
I'm sorry for the way my life turned out
Sorry for the smile I'm wearing now
Guess I'm still not good enough

Release your curse
'Cause I know my worth
Those wounds you made are gone
You ain't seen nothing yet
Your love wore thin
And I never win
You want the best
So sorry that's clearly not me
This is all I can be

Am I still not good enough?
Am I still not worth that much?
I'm sorry for the way my life turned out
Sorry for the smile I'm wearing now
Guess I'm still not good enough




Thursday, January 23, 2014

So, Teary Thursday



Ahhhh, again
Another one song to be blamed


These Four Walls by Little Mix

I feel so numb
Staring at the shower wall
It's begun,
The feeling that the end has come
And now the water's cold

I tried to eat today
But the lump in my throat got in the way

In this time I've lost all sense of pride
I've called a hundred times
If I hear your voice I'll be fine

And I, I can't come alive
I want the room to take me under
'Cause I can't help but wonder
What if I had one more night for goodbye?
If you're not here to turn the lights off, I can't sleep
These four walls and me

I lay in bed
Can't seem to leave your side
Your pillow's wet
From all these tears I've cried
I won't say goodbye

I tried to smile today
Then I realized there's no point anyway

In this time I've lost all sense of pride
I've called a thousand times
If I hear your voice I'll be fine

And I, I can't come alive
I want the room to take me under
'Cause I can't help but wonder
What if I had one more night for goodbye?
If you're not here to turn the lights off I can't sleep
These four walls and me

Oh oh oh

And I, I can't come alive
I want the room to take me under
'Cause I can't help but wonder
What if I had one more night for goodbye?
If you're not here to turn the lights off I can't sleep
These four walls and me



Wednesday, January 22, 2014

So, Weepie Wednesday




Suddenly it struck me to be a little too emotional tonight
So I blame this song!


Towers by Little Mix

You turn, and I learn that the walls come falling down
Not a word, only heard what my friends could tell me now

I feel love when I see your face
But all these scars, I can't replace
Shocked me hard, hit me hard,
And I don't know what to say

When you knock on my door
And tell me you don't wanna fight
Oh, baby I'm sure
That I'm not gonna fall this time
Oh

You never brought me flowers
Never held me in my darkest hours
And you left it so late that my heart feels nothing, nothing. And towers
Once we were made like towers
Everything could have been ours
But you left it too late now my heart feels nothing, nothing at all

Oh, oh, oh

It's a shame
You're to blame
'Cause once you owned my heart
I remember feeling so high
But I'm right back at the start

I still feel love when I see your face
But all these tears I can't erase
Sorry heart, I'm sorry heart
But we'll have to start again

So don't knock on my door
And tell me you don't wanna fight
'Cause I heard it before
And I'm not going back this time
Not going back this time

You never brought me flowers
Never held me in my darkest hours
And you left it so late that my heart feels nothing, nothing. And towers
Once we were made like towers
Everything could have been ours
But you left it too late now my heart feels nothing, nothing at all (oh, oh, oh)

Nothing at all (oh, oh, oh)

When you're close I wanna change my mind
But I remember you and what we're like
I don't wanna let you waste my time

And you never brought me flowers
Never held me in my darkest hours
And you left it so late that my heart feels nothing, nothing at all
Once we were made like towers
Everything could have been ours
But you left it too late now my heart feels nothing, nothing at all

(oh, oh, oh, yeah)
Nothing at all (oh, oh, oh)
Nothing at all

Once we were built like towers
Nothing at all
We were built like towers
Now my heart feels nothing at all


Tuesday, January 21, 2014

So, My Playlist to Start off 2014



It has been very quick
I think I haven't had the chance to blink my eyes
It is already the end of January
I really need to learn to get my life in order
I mean, to live as a human being
Being beneficial to others
That's we should roll
Not only for our own self

So, what I put in my mp3 player?
Here you go!!!

First up is Katy Perry's Prism

I like this album so much
She always make her music sounding so much of hers
I mean, she's very unique!
She has her own sound
Which is totally shows her true artiste
In fact, the songs are not the kind of trying-to-hard songs
She makes each one of her songs sounding very easy listening
Not too alien
You know right when you listen to new songs
There are my favourite songs like Legendary Lovers, Unconditionally, Dark Horse, Ghost, Love Me, This Moment, By The Grace of God, Spiritual, It Takes Two, Choose Your Battle
You can see that my fav list has almost all of the songs
It is very good
Try to put on your playlist


The second one is Little Mix's Salute

Another great album to listen to
I love this girlband because of their dynamics
The songs in it are very good!
It is so great to hear their songs!
So fresh!
The opening song for the album is so feisty, Salute, one of my favs
The same like Prism, almost all the songs are my favs
I love Little Me, Nothing Feels Like You, Towers, These Four Walls, Mr Loverboy, They Just Don't Know, and Little Me (unplugged)

There are other albums in my playlist

Self-titled album by Avril Lavigne

Jessie J's Alive

Lady Gaga's Artpop

The Saturdays' Living For the Weekend

Self-titled album by Paramore

Lorde's Pure Heroine

Ariana Grande's Yours Truly

Next are the list which are waiting on the line

Self-titled album by Beyonce

Nicki Minaj's Legacy

Imagine Dragons' Night Visions

As you can see, there are a few self-titled album
I have no idea why is that trending
Maybe they want to highlight their name again, instead of naming their albums by other names
If you guys have any other list, just write to me
Maybe I might love it





XO







Saturday, January 18, 2014

So, How Do You Define You



Everyday I found it so hard to leave the bed
Even to get out from the blanket
I just wanna hide under the blanket
It makes me feel so safe
My only hiding place
Where I won't be harm by anything
Feel totally safe and sound
My room, my sanctuary

To tell you guys about my room, it is totally my heaven
Why?
Because it is so dark, not too warm even there's no AC
Also, no coverage!!!
I can be with myself at all times when I'm in it

It is the place where I can feel like nobody's gonna harm me
Physically, or even emotionally
Mentally, maybe

Having a very understanding parents, also helps me to grow
The best outta me
Even not at my bestest to other's eyes
But that should come in your way
However, for me, I have that difficulties
I dreads every single thing what people might think of me
I feel very insecure
When I am outside of my comfort zone, my room

I have to be someone else
Someone who is not me
Very insensitive, even I'm totally sensitive and emotional, too emotional maybe
No one even care
So, I have to live being less sensitive than I am
A good point but very odd to me

Every single day is a dread
Never came across my mind that my day will be very wonderful like I wanted it to be
However, I have to go on
I put my feet in front of the other
Keep on walking, even ever so slowly

And then...

I just stumbled upon this video
Very inspiring
I bet it's very inspirational!!!

Try to listen to it without watching the video
Maybe almost at the end of it, open your eyes
You will never believe yourself
Even you slapped your face
Even you ask someone near you to slap you across the face hard enough
You will never believe the kind of super bubbly personality come from this girl, who was called 'the ugliest girl on Earth'

Have a look
A video worth sharing



What do you feel?
Try to put yourself in her shoes

I thought I am having the roughest patches of life
No, I am not
She is the one who is living a living hell
The world threatens her to shoot herself
How was that sounds if it would be you to learn that people don't want you
Even you never do anything to hurt them, not even physically

Think of it

Maybe you would like to see how Lizzie really live her life full with positivity
Try to visit her channel on YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/user/lizzitachickita
I watched some
I think I will watch more
Her personality is very interesting!

I just wanna live the moment of my life
This song just suit nicely



Just live your days so happily!!!






XO










Thursday, January 9, 2014

So, Looking Back at 2013


Happy new year!!!
Happy 2014!!!

It has been quite a very quick year for me
For the first time in my life to have all the list to be accomplished
So called, a resolution list
However, only a few were checked
The others are still pending
And yet, it's so frustrating
How people keep track with their list???
Mind to share?

Two, zero, one, three
It had been a very quick year for me
Last time I remember doing was...
I don't know
I don't remember what I did, nothing much significant
But there was one big thing happened
I'm so happy
Still happy about it

I was 79th-UiTM-Convocation's best student!
One of the best students
I was the recipient of Anugerah Pelajaran Diraja (Pingat Jaya Cemerlang)
I iz happy!!!
Thank you for those who have been supporting me
And still keep on supporting me

My Ibu, Abah
Quiet but I know they are praying for me
Never get in my way to do things
They know that I won't do anything silly
That's what I got from one of my colleagues

My siblings
The annoying but reliable
The gorgeous and courageous
The young and dangerous but very kind
Each one represent each one of them
Thank you loves

My only Safuwan
I would say, he's one of the ultimate reason I was crowned with such award
He's younger than me but he is way much wiser than me
I learned a lot from him
And still learning from him
I hope we can continue being like we do now
So many people in my circle change, but I hope it's not you
Please be others
I can't afford to lose my rock

And also for others unmentioned
My classmates, my housemates, my Penang batchmates, my bestfriends,my family and relatives, my colleagues at Sheraton
You guys have filled up my life with such joy that I can't thank each one of you enough

Because of the award, I was crowned to be the best of my programme and also my faculty
It was so overwhelming to get so many awards
Also, the highlight for last year was about my accident
My very first and the worst so far
Still, I wish I won't be involved in any major accident
God forbid
Got deep open wounds
Took at least one week to heal
But the pain is still thereAll my limbs now have involved with accident
However, I'm grateful for that because at least now I know how it feels like to be involved in an accident, what to do, what to feel, how to react
Thank God it wasn't that serious
But it freaked my loved ones
I'm really sorry to put you guys in the situation
Things happened
Glad to have people care for me

And, another misfortune was the missing phone
It was the day after the convocation
The night before it was dropped somewhere, I was totally into it
Played it like there's no tomorrow
When I was about to arrive home, after that 45-minute ride, I just realized the phone wasn't in my pocket
Returned to the hotel to check
There was no phone to be found
Too tired to carefully looking around for the phone on my way back
Before I went to sleep, I tried to call
There's dialing tone
I slept soundly that I forgot about it
Woke up quite late
Tried calling, there's no tone anymore
Went straight to the voice mailI had no idea what to really feel about it
Totally numb
Takpela
Dah nk hilang
Bukan rezeki la tu kot

So far, that's the highlight I would like to share

If there's anymore highlight which I think worth to share, I'll keep you guys updated later

Let's rock 2014!





Homai, it took me hours to compose this simple post. So frustrating. I hate the current tech I have. Very inefficient. Idk if it was me or the devices. Urgh!!!



XO