Thursday, November 26, 2009

so, here i go again...

juz get upset with everybody...
i dunno y....
hm...
i'm sick of feeling sick...
i dunno what is happening to me...
i miss everybody who are close to me or shud i say most of 'em have become
"used to be close to me"...

i hate saying this...
it does make me feel not good bout myself...
but i just can help it...
i'm sick...
i miss u guys!!!
...BFF...
Is it only so called 'BFF'???
again, i'm saying this...
i'm sick of complaining...
but i just can help it...
huhu, but i'm feeling thankful whenever i think of you's...
hahaha...
da nk rayer kn...
huhu...
so, slmt hr rayer...

p/s: does blogs making ppl feeling sicker than ever?

Monday, November 9, 2009

so, stopping being obnoxius

hm...
after doing a lot of thinking, i can figure sth out...that is, friendship sumtimes is beautiful, like a story that was made...sumtimes, it is beautiful in a way that i cant really figure it out...so, rather than protesting, in askance, about my relationship with my friends, it dawns to me that i should savour every moment of it...my thoughts, i think, is totally true...i'm convinced by my own idea,(plus i'm listening to romantic instrumental now which is so soothing my mind off craps)i'm sick of all of 'em...hahaha...i should never ask silly questions, it came to me sometimes, though...however, i'm not only the living organism ever existed on earth, so, i'm not the only person that should always be sensible of about the things going on, e.g: my confusion of my friendship...sb, however, need to sort this thing for me...i'm sick of being thinking alone for circumstances happen around me...owh, here we go again, i'm the obnoxious boy...

i should stop contemplate all those...huhu...it's ok for me to have conflict with those things...or else, i won't be thinking...putting my mind to rest sumtimes so me the best thing on earth but i have to remind myself that 'lack of thinking will cause your barin to be dead'...but, should i care?i love to be thinkless...here we go gain, i'm the obnoxious boy...

i just finish another novel by Cecilia Ahern, my fav Irish novelist...she wrote a total fantasy that always keep me intrigued to her stories, keep me in my own world, trapped in trance-like...so far, i've done reading, P/S I Love You(a very sweet story), A Place Called Here(caused me confusion mixed with excitement), Thanks For the Memories, (i Cant rememeber the story but, i'm saying, 'thanks for the stories,cecilia') and last but not least, Where the Rainbows End (a very beautiful one)I'm looking forward to read another one, If You Could See Me Now...My beloved sis, (who seems to be surprisingly to ask me to top up her cell just now but fortunately i have some money and i did), just bought me the book for my birthday(which apparently to be months ago)...I'm loving it...cm McD plak...I dunno bout her latest magical touch compositions...ak rse The Gift and Table for Two...i cant wait...whatever it's...it came to me that i love romantic stories which includes movies...i'm starting to collect and watch beautiful roamantic movies just to do the job of boredom clearance...hehehe...i'm glad i finally found sth that i fond to do...huhu...it would be better if the romantic stories are added with humour and funny things...huhu...keep me intrigued...i have to search more interesting things that i think i wud be interested enough to continue living and stop thinking of death or even suicide =)...O_o...seems like nobody wud love to do the job...fine, i'll find it myself!here we go again, i'm the obnoxious boy...

hukhuk...i think i should stop here as it's unhealthy to be so obnoxious...i'm turning a new page...i'm sick of feeling this way...there are loads of feeling that i should try, that's what Morrie (a very thoughtful man i've ever known, but i've never met him face to face, just in a book entitled Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom. I'm thanking my fren, shaz cuz she gave it to me) wud say to me if i ask about this feeling thingy...so, it's a good piece of advice from me,
'Stop Obnoxiousness!'
It is good, isn't it?hehehe...

hukhuk...