Saturday, May 2, 2009

so boring...

it's been a good day...
hahaha...
b/c i'm starting my life again...
yesterday, after i sent helmy to the bus stop(die nk blk rmh abg die), i went to sleep...
bgn, solat...tdo blk, bgn, solat, tdo blk...sblm tu online jap...
pastu tdo blk...
bgn solat, tdo blk...
pastu, bgn mandi, solat...
pastu, nk tdo blk da asar plak...
pastu solat, pastu, sket lg nk tdo blk...
tbe tgk ade missed calls...
egtkn psl ape shaz misscall...
rpe2nyer, nk ajak p psr mlm...
then, i drop everything and just go...
with my messy hair, and everything that seems so not good, went well...
hahahha...
bile da jmpe dorg, dorg ckp, 'weyh ko br bgn tdo eh?'
ak ckpla ak da lme da bgn tdo...
ak ckp yg ak trus dtg...
xkms papepon...
ak tmbh lg, ape ak kesah, bkn ade org pon yg knl ak...
nk je ak tmbh, klu kenal pon, ade ke dorg nk kesah...
nobody seems to care for me except for those who ask me, 'weyh ko br bgn tdo eh?' just now...
huhu...
it's hard to find somebody that can make you feel good...
sometimes your closest people can't do any better when u'r in a bad day...
sometimes, you can just make urself feel good about urself alone...
but that doesn't work all the time...
we need friend or friends mb...
but in the bunch, we dunno who can laugh together and cry together or leave us stranded in the middle of heavy downpour...
alone sometimes is the best time to be but...
alone can cause you pain, because you might say that, 'nobody care' and it hurts a lot...
sometimes, people love to be left hurt b/c some people enjoy crying...
sometimes....
hahaha...
dunno what else to add...
but i think i'm getting something off my chest...
just dunno...
what is happening to me...
envy for people getting their beautiful life?
that is because they can do what they love to do or maybe they themselves decide to be happy...
sick of people around for having friends?
that is because i'm the one who is a little picky and choosy when it comes to get a friend...
hate to live my life?
that is because i'm decided to like that...
whatever it is...
life goes on, right?
sometimes it hurts a lot to think that we are in pain...
make me sick...
that, i don't want to think about it that much...
but i just can't help it...
it just 'pop' in my mind...
so, just have to think of it...
nway, can i go further if i continue like to be like this, a pessimist?
so, me myself'll decide...
whatever it is...
i just finished watching desperate housewives season 1...
i'm looking forward to watch the second season which i think a lot i have to catch up...

hukhuk...

5 comments:

  1. I mean here...
    the social context here's different...
    huhu...
    u'r a gr8 friend...
    dun u worry...

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  2. haha..yea of course.. even best friends you were with b4 are disappearing. dat's life, bebeh. hujan mmg best pn. .best tdo.ahax~

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  3. farah:
    u'r one of the going-to-be-great friend...
    huhu...

    chacha:
    that's so thoughtful of u...
    love rainy day, the real rain, not the one that tells us we're doomed...
    huhu...

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